Welcome to Day One of my toxic-free life.
In the next five months, while most people are absorbed in grueling university endeavors, I will be working/studying in a psychiatric hospital ward and in a kiddie foundation. Specifically, the AFP Medical Center and the Kythe Foundation. Well, not because my family's running out of money to send me to school, and definitely not because I got kicked-out from my course. But I'm doing this because I needed the clinical exposure and the work experience to add to my resume - for my approaching employment in 2005, and other matters, which I'd rather reveal as the months pass by.
Of course I'd still finish college. I just needed to interrupt my education for a while to give way to something more urgent.
Sigh. I feel so grown-up for planning my future this way!
The Negative Effects
For every decision taken, there are risks involved. And some of them could really turn out to be really disapproving. My temporary "withdrawal" from UP has caused me to formulate these realistic yet negative outcomes:
1. Because of sufficient sleep and less stress, I could become fatter.
2. Because my brain will take a vacation from scientific thinking, I could become dumb.
3. Because there will be no regular allowance, I couldn't leave the house for reasons other than work.
4. Because I will not be seeing my friends often, they might forget me forever.
5. Because I will be less busy, my parents might send me to impossible errands more often.
6. Because there would be no 7:00am class, I might become too lazy to wake up each morning.
7. Because I will be missing 8 subjects (4 lectures and 4 labs), I might not be able to graduate on time.
It worries me whenever I review this list. It even makes me wonder whether I made the correct decision or not. But well, I'm already here. I already made the decision. The only thing left to do now, to counter the negative thoughts which constantly run through my head, is to keep repeating these words to myself:
And then hopefully, my anxiety would stop troubling me.
